Week 5 - please take care of yourself

Okay I should have listened to my body yesterday. I still felt the pain in my buttocks yesterday and thought I can do squats with light weights... WRONG! I was like a granny after the class, crying in pain, craving for painkillers. Well today hasn't been much better, it still hurts a lot. They said at work that this is what you get from getting into sports so passionately and I guess its true. I really take this so seriously that sometimes I want to laugh at myself. Like today when I really had to weigh in my mind for the whole day if I can or can't go to the practice although it was clear already yesterday that I can't. I just WANT so much that I sometimes force myself striving for my best - over my own limits. Lesson learned again! It seems I never learn... How about my leg after the ½ marathon? Well I ran the marathon happily, just a little ache in my right foot sole that get worse after 10 kilometers and was quite painful after 16 km. The last 5 km I went without a sight of smile and just wished to see the goal. It hurt so much that when I reached the goal I wasn't sure if I cry for happiness or pain. Still I think it was happiness - I finally reached my long time goal to be able to run the ½ marathon with thousands of other runners. Yes and then the next day with the broken leg I went to the 9 hours boot camp and skated 5 hours with the pain. And again the only feeling was happiness of getting to learn so much from so amazing skaters. The pain came secondary. Well maybe pain shouldn't always come secondary. Striving for success is awesome and respectable but loosing your health doing it can be very sad.

Do you feel me?

I'm skipping the practice today and tomorrow morning I have a massage. Fingers crossed that I can skate tomorrow!