Patience, Shorty

I will get there, I know I will. It just wont happen overnight, or in a week or even in a month. A year could be more like it. It's certain that I'm doing alright, learning and getting better every once in a while but the days I can't get enough out of me are disasters. I still have major balance problems like stumbling on my own feet or getting trough a pack and then immediately falling, instantly falling when being checked. I have gotten better especially in maintaining my balance when being checked but I still feel like an easy target. There's lots of surface to check me on 'cause of the 180 cm I'm holding. There just needs to be a way of me dealing with it, after all I'm not the only tall person playing roller derby! And now that we talk about checking there's another issue I have to deal with. About 50% of my checks succeed in a way I'm satisfied with. What about the other 50%? Yet again some balance problems, just missing it or otherwise stumbling. That it something that just needs more practice.

I also lack power. Or a way of using it, I'm quite certain there is lots of power in me I just don't know how to control. It's hard to be so aware of these things and know there should be improvement but the improvement just keeps waiting for itself. I know I'm the only person who can make it happen but it's not just a snap of your fingers and BAM you're a great player. I have to keep repeating to myself that this is something I've never done before. I can't expect to immediately suck in the skills but to work hard to learn.

Good news about the attendance percentages. The old percentages were reset and started over from 1st of September. That puts me in 4/5 so 80%. That is exactly the future limit for scrimmages, so I just need to keep it up. Yesterday we had a two hour skate practice and I was not near as tired I was afraid to be. After all it was the 5th workout day in a row. I have the core exercise on the menu today but... I might end up in a golf range with a golf club. Wait - what? Yes, another long time project I've been wanting to start. Golf. Yes, really. That has to do quite much with the business I'm working in, it's almost like a rule that salesmen in this refrigeration business do golf. And if I want to climb the ladder it is certainly an advantage to know how to play. Also I find it educating because you need loads of patience and concentration which would be great to better. The fun part hasn't really opened to me yet since I've only tried once on a brown, meaning we had to carry this small green mat everywhere we went and swing the ball on top of it. Anyway, going to the range would mean 65 squats and some sit-ups too.

Sorry for all the I:s today, me me me that's what it's all about. ¿No? Damn it if I'm not a dangerous player in a year from starting! We'll see what's become of Shorty in April next year.